Shiva : The Dance of Transformation

As the tender to the Fire of the Goddess usually my posts revolve around the divine feminine, however this time I have decided to write about a God, Shiva.  He has been dancing through my mind lately, as the god of creation and destruction, smeared with ashes, naked and wildly jubilant in the recent and continuous (sigh) destruction of ego. Last summer, during my impending  separation from a thirteen year relationship,  I went to the beach for several days to feel into the entire situation.  The massive voice in my heart, the one that resounds knowingly in spite of what chaos may ensue boomed, "Let go...let go...let go..." and so those days on the beach, I came to clarity.  It was time to let go and move on.  Almost as soon as I made that decision, my camera fell into the sand and began acting strangely.  It still worked, but it wouldn't zoom in and out and refused any manual settings.  So I pretty much stopped taking pictures with it. Many moons passed, waxing and waning as they do and I created so many ceremonies of letting go, clearing as well as stepping more firmly into my own inner growth of love, power and wisdom that follows a separation.   I did one final massive fire ceremony and burned a great many papers of the past, old research, documents that had connected us in the past; it was time to let it all go.  There were so many papers that the fire went on for hours, burning and clearing. The following morning a few of my self marriage vows had escaped the flames and floated around the now huge pile of ashes.  One that floated out over and over [...]

Thinking Green, Feeling Green

Green.  It's the all the rage: green juice, green sustainability, green thinking.  Green is ecological, eco - logical and eco is definitely IN. As the Green Wood Horse thunders in, my thoughts and heart turn to green: the green grass, drinking green juice, being green, living green.  What is that, to live green? To live in harmony with the earth. Our society seems to be turning more toward this green, harmonious living like recycling, reusing, refraining from too much consumption.  A variety of 'green' products and organic options are found in supermarket aisles.  Bamboo cotton, recycled clothing, solar lighting are trending more everyday. However, is there some deeper meaning to being in harmony with the earth?  What does that really mean? I don't think buying a 'greener' product, or substituting organic rice for regular is enough to really enable full harmony with our environment. Being in harmony with the earth means, ultimately, being in harmony with ourselves.   Our bodies, minds, hearts are simply another expression of the earth, just a a tree is, a dog, a cloud, an ocean.  Those things don't try to 'be green.' They naturally express themselves and there is a harmony that exudes from that natural expression. In our current culture, many of us seem to be lacking harmony, searching for a way back to center to our hearts, a way to find balance.  The recent death of Philip Seymour Hoffman struck me.  His death, like so many others, even friends of mine put a spotlight on the shadowy reality of life way out of balance.  There is a strong rise in addiction and deaths connected to many kinds of pharmaceutical drugs.  This is such an extreme way to live life, that we are in so [...]